I’ve recently begun sitting in on design meetings, and being the socially awkward person that I am at work I’ve been completely shut-mouthed for the full duration of all of them (okay, maybe said four words total). I’ve always been more of a listener and observer than a talker so this seems normal to some degree. Just trying to feel out personalities and such. Figure out how receptive this group would be to all of the questions that I COULD have.
It starts to get uncomfortable being a fly on the wall, but even though I’ve been at the company for three years now and on the project for one, I’m still very far from fully understanding things like…the technical limitations of our systems, or the actual design philosophies that we’re striving to follow (not just the ones written on paper), etc. Basically, I worry about expressing opinions that come out sounding uninformed. I think this is true for all aspects of my life. Too much worry about perceptions. If I sound stupid so be it, right? Some kind soul will tell me I’m doing it wrong eventually.
There are these crazy looking peeling trees around Trent’s apartment that I took a million pictures of yesterday since I totally wanted to do a photo manipulation with the wilting bark made to look like bloody lesions and such. I did a quick google image search for “wounds” today to see how those would work out as reference and immediately decided that I would not be able to stomach staring at that shit hours on end.
Flowers instead.